Now I have one too!

17 April 2005
Sunday in Budapest. I’ve decided today to begin my own Blog. The idea scared me for a long time, but I think I’ve finally realized that it’s not really that big of a deal. My friend Laura reminded me that with all those blogs out there, the only people who’ll read mine are those who care (probably). So here I am, writing my first entry. What should I say? Just pick up my life where it is now and try to express myself for today? Hmm, I’ll try.

Spring in Budapest. The spring before I leave. It seems that no matter how long you live in a foreign place, you only begin to feel at home and meet cool people you’d like to spend a lot of time with once you only have a few months until you leave. I thought by staying here for two years instead of only one I’d avoid this problem, but no, it didn’t work. Maybe there needs to be a sense of urgency, or an end for you to realize what it is that you already have.

So what I have here is a wonderful life, a job that means something, colleagues and students who appreciate what I do, and an interesting place to live and explore. Unfortunately, it’s time for me to leave (or to be exact it will soon be time to leave) and I’m going to really miss it here. It’s easy to leave a place when you’re unhappy, but it’s certainly a whole different story when it’s good. But you can’t cling to the good times any longer than the bad because life just keeps moving and all you’ll get for fighting the current is water up your nose. I realize that even if I stayed, it wouldn’t be the same, and in fact it would somehow sour because I’m not supposed to stay. I’m supposed to move onto the next adventure. The problem is that I’m not sure what it’ll be. I’ll keep you all posted on that front.

I have 8 more weeks here to live, teach, learn, explore and enjoy. I hope they’re good. I’m sure they’ll be busy. I have a lot to look forward too, I need to just sit back and enjoy the ride and just drink it all to the last drop. Cheers!